Here I am at 2:30 in the morning contemplating how nice it would be to have something (or someone) to call my own. How nice it would be to be free from the path that my life is taking right now. How it would be great to just pursue whatever I felt like pursuing at this moment in time. I’m thinking to myself “man wouldn’t that be beautiful, to just course correct and change everything?” In the past month I’ve met people that I would love to be able to grow with, people that I would love to just experience life with. And I almost believed it, if not just for a second. As nice as it might sound, that life represents a half-truth. All of those things are good, but I know myself too well to be so naive as to think that I wouldn’t turn those things into ultimate things. I’m just not ready for that yet and God has already put me on a path. Maybe someday but for now, as hard as it is, I will just cling to Him, because he is all I really need. No, He’s all I have.